If I haven’t heard it once recently, I’ve heard it a million times already…..”You are so calm.”
I literally looked around to see who they were talking to and then do the whole point at myself to mouth, “me?”
“Wait until you get to know me……” I sheepishly replied.
It really doesn’t take much for me to come unglued. I mean really. I try. Really I do but sometimes it just happens. I can feel the “Elmer’s glue” God used to plug up the holes of my brokenness crack and peel right off.
Am I alone? I mean is it just me or can anyone out there go with me on this one???
I used to call it my “mean teacher” personality. A couple of kids fight and she appears. Sometimes my evil twin shows up in other places. At the slam of a car door. At slow check out line. Oh, even at church. Yep. She seeps in those Holy doors at times.
I think age has something to do with it though. I mean….. I do come undone at times….. but not like I used to. Just the other day I breathed under my breath, “Life is way too short for drama.”
No. I think the real reason is simple….. Jesus. I’ve allowed Him to fill me up. He is who I look for now. He is what I am living for. He’s all up in my business and I am welcoming Him into my messy real life….. not the one everyone sees from the outside. The inside inside….. you know what I mean. He gets to see it all and bless His heart He is so patient. Patiently gluing me back together again one broken piece at a time.