[I] who [am] pregnant with [thoughts of food] and conceives trouble gives birth to disillusionment. Psalms 7:14
Round with thoughts of food. My body scarred with stretch marks of the truth. My mind pregnant with thoughts of food. I have conceived trouble.
I think then I act.
The trouble comes in all sorts of venues…… guilt-filled eating. Harsh resentment towards God for allowing it to happen. Feelings of failure, betrayal, and physical discomfort. Had, ahem, have conceived them all.
It all breeds disillusionment. Pride. I can do this alone. Secrecy. No one will know. Worthlessness. I am such a big fat loser.
The cure comes from Philippians 4:8
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.